John American Standard Bible (NASB) 16 You did not choose Me but I chose you, and appointed you that you would go and bear fruit, and that your fruit would remain, so that whatever you ask of the Father in My name He may give to you.
Accept that years were wasted on an alcoholic. Accept that you were married to a man who was in denial. Let go of the abuse you took from an alcoholic. Let go of the man who chose drinking over his children and wife. Have faith in what will be.