Not pretend, but our friendship's over now (or maybe not, I don't know) and messaging him to tell him that I miss him is just inappropriate. I doubt it'll be fine for him to be my friend again. Knowing him.
We had two years together, and I take comfort in knowing we're still friends. We still talk, but I take even more comfort in the fact that you know you screwed up. You know you lost someone amazing. -- of course i can't help but wonder.
I even miss you when you give me a hard time. I miss you calling my teeth nubs, because you're right. I miss everything we once had. I miss worship together. I miss bible study together. I miss your family. I miss us.
We met at the wrong time. That’s what I keep telling myself anyway. Maybe one day years from now, we’ll meet in a coffee shop in a far away city somewhere and we could give it another shot. ― Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind