I'm trying desperately to figure out what the reason was for putting him in my path. Other than heartbreak and ruining my self confidence and feeling totally conned and stupid, I don't know. But i know i love you sooo much Des!
We loved each other then we broke it. Somedays it feels like I still want him, and I cant imagine why. I still worry about him and know that this is a pain I will have to continue to hold inside forever and ever.